autumn twilight
… where the water meets the sea, between the worlds, within the void …autumn twilight
… where the water meets the sea, between the worlds, within the void …Guilty
I’m feeling guilty tonight. Guilty for a number of reasons. Mostly I feel guilty because it seems like I always let the day to day business of my life get in the way of the larger movements, and by the time I get back to them they’ve either passed me by, or I’m back at square one.
This blog is one of the few things that I’ve ever kept around for more than a year or so. And even here, My life moves me into and out of orbit more frequently than I’d like.
It’s not a very comfortable feeling. And there are times when I feel helpless. There’s a whole list of things that are important to me, that I’d like to accomplish, and it often feels like no matter what I do they simply are not going to get done. I can think of a dozen ways to adjust my life that would make it easier to focus or apply myself in these other areas, but all of them require patience. I am not in the mood for patience. I want my life to get itself in order now.
so much to write, so little time
I’ve been out of the writing game for about 6 weeks now, and I’ve sorely missed sharing my thoughts here. As often happens, the transition from winter to spring is kicking my ass, but with the full moon i seem to be coming out of the shadows again.
I’ll have more later today and this week.
Being Unhappy Makes us Unhappy: the fucked up truth
I’ve been thinking a lot about our culture lately. A bunch of different people have brought the subject up, in thorough essays and general conversations. Not just any culture, but not a limited view of culture either. What is interesting me most right now is how we can change the culture that exists, and develop new culture. It’s no secret that I think the culture of America is unhealthy. I can accept the fractious aspect of our culture, I think we’re too big for it to be any other way. What I have trouble accepting is how much of our culture seems to be devoted to patterns that make us unhappy.
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2009 11 23 | late night thoughts on vocations
I have not written much lately. I have wanted to, but I’m not sure how to focus on one thing. So much in my mind, more than I can easily parse.
It wouldn’t be so overwhelming if I weren’t caught in a cycle of obsession about my weight. I’ve been feeling fat lately. Not just a little fat, but incredibly fat. Fat like I won’t properly fit through doors or into chairs.
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Float upon your perceptions, harness them, but do not bind them.
Sun: Taurus
Moon: Waning Gibbous (in Capricorn)
Earlier this evening I did some bowl scrying. I’ve done this before and had varied results. Tonight was unexpected. Almost immediately upon starting to scry I received very potent spiritual contact. I was told, almost audibly, “Look not into the bowl to hear us.” What followed was some very interesting channeled communication and a bout of automatic writing. … read the rest
A first effort
Sun: Taurus
Moon: Waning Gibbous (in Capricorn)
Tonight I am asking the spirits how I can better be open to their messages and communications.
Images from the Alchemical Tarot (copyright Robert M. Place): Used with Permission
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